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    Thursday, December 30, 2010

    aduyai, aku ingat nak merajinkan diri buat entry 12 days before Christmas... last-lastnya semua tak menjadi. salahkan line broadband yang cam ha**m kat kampung nie. sia sia je aku bayar mahal bulan2, service cam tu gak. tapi kalo sebulan dua tak bayar bil... masa tu la sibuk nak block usage.. siot betul.

    masuk hari ni dah 17 hari aku duk kat rumah. satu perkataan je nak describe:PENJARA! hidup aku xde makna... hari biasa bangun pagi, breakfast pastu buat kerja rumah. yg mak n nenek aku g toreh getah (harga getah naik).. tapi kalo jual getah tu nanti, seposen pun aku tak merasa weiii... aku tau la aku ni penganggur xde kerja, wat master tak reti nak habis-habis. tapi aku tak minta benda semua tu jadi, tau tak. aku dah baek sangat kalo kiranya, xde duit gaji tetap tapi ade ke aku minta duit dari korang bulan2? xde kan?? kalo de pun boleh kira dengan jari sebelah tangan kot.. itu pun tak habis jari tu korang nak bilang. rutin aku hari-hari: kemas n sapu rumah, cuci baju, jerit suruh adik2 bgn tido, masak, mandi, online kejap, tggu the dearest call, makan, tido, masak dinner... sangat bosan!!!

    kalau aku n adik2 nak keluar sama, memang sangat susah kotttt! aku tak tau la apa masalah kat dorang nie. rasa nak jerit2 je suruh buka mata tu tengok anak dara orang lain.. ade ke dorang tu kesah nak bangun pagi2 buat kerja rumah?? adake dorang tu duduk diam kat rumah?? hah, masa Christmas hari tu.... try korang gi tanya mana anak dara lain yang duduk baek punya kat rumah tak gi memana sebab nak tolong layan tetamu kat rumah?? cuci gelas, pinggan, stok air tin lam fridge, panaskan makanan? ktrg dah buat semua benda yg patut buat, korang boleh lagi nak marah bising2? korang nak ape lagi????????? kalo nak yg perfect, pergi beli robot ganti kitrg ni, korang program je wat ever korang nak... puas ati korang nak tekan button arahan mana pun.

    dengan umur aku nie, ramai je kawan sebaya lain dah kawen, kerja jauh tapi mak pak dorang cool je. aku nie balik kampung je, kena perintah berkurung.. nak kuar lepak saje2 ngan adik or kawan tak boleh. apatah lagi nak kuar tengok midnite movie cam salu ... in ur dream la gamak nyer... tunggu kucing bertanduk ke.....

    to korang yang bergelar mak, nenek, makcik, bapak, pakcik dan orang tua seangkatan dengannya... aku nak korang cuba fikir sikit... Korang kongkong gila babeng cam ni, kalo la satu hari aku tetiba dapat kekuatan hulk tu nak rebel.. ape korang boleh buat time tu???? Cuba fikir lagi, korang ingat aku ni bakal jadi cam ni je ke selama nya? aku takkan kawen ada family sendiri ke????? sampai bila nak kerah n kongkong jangan buat itu, jangan buat ini????? tak nak try appreciate walau sikit pun ke, selagi boleh ni?

    ini tak, pantang aku duduk sikit jer, mula la nak tunjuk tak puas ati. buat kerja pung-pang-pung-pang, nak heboh satu kampung ka yang hangpa tu tengah buat kerja? aku dah 26 tau, ada life sendiri, ada hak nak menikmati hidup. jangan sampai aku terkurang ajar bahasa sudah....

    p/s: lu pikir la sendiri!

    on the 10th & 9th day before.....

    Thursday, December 16, 2010
    on the 10th day:

    ~my super mojo, emo day! just can't get the fact that i am treated like a 7 years old kid by the parental & supervising unit. can not go anywhere we wish to, not even uncle's house. must not go out after 5pm (seriously, what is she thinking of? ) I need to come back to that place across the sea, that rented little house where a bunch of like-minded people live together. am very afraid that i can get any serious emotional breakdown if things continue to be like this...
    *long sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

    9th day was not exception.. same old same old. but manage to get myself a room for my own, well... that's a small good news to make my day.

    *......i am a survivor!......*

    11th day before Christmas..

    Wednesday, December 15, 2010
    Jingle bells in the air!!!!!

    Yesterday was the 11th day before Christmas day.. & my first day back at home. Started my day at 7am yo! ;) After having my breakfast then off doing house chores n cooked for lunch. My days as so-called housewives has begun.. *sigh*

    At noon, went to Bau with my sisters, met up an old classmates, catch up a little bit, done our errands and went straight back home before heading back to Boulevard for Christmas shopping, yeayy

    And guess what, my sis insist that i try to drive the car from a junction to our village. OMG, i was freaking out. It was like ages since the day i last put my hands on a steering!!!! I have this disorder, i never can master the art if steering handling, the car will go crazy to left n right all the time! I don't know what is wronggggggg with me!!!!!! I always have the feeling that the car is not going straight, hahaha..... my god, and that is an Auto car!!

    Stop stop, enough of humiliating myself. Now we talked about fooodddd!!! Yes, fooood. Had a cheap, nyummy and *thumbs up* lamb chop yesterday at Boulevard Food Court. The black pepper gravy was superbly perfect! Price at RM9.90, that was the cheapest Lamb Chop everrrrr!!!

    Oh ya, no picture of it because... i am so droool at the sight of it.. the 1st thing i did was reach for my knife n fork, cut it into pieces and put it in my mouth...:D

    this is the report for day 11th before. XOXO....

    this is the story: 12th day before Christmas

    Tuesday, December 14, 2010
    this entry were supposed to be for yesterday (right, 12 day countdown to Christmas).. but because of the tired-ness of my flight home so i collapsed sleeping very early....

    In my 7,8 years of flying KL-Kch and vice-versa, last night flight was the most memorable of all.. Why? First of all, we have our flight delayed, the usual thing you must expect if flying with AirAsia. The 6.40pm time which originally was our departure time turned to the time the craft landed from Kch (i guess)...

    So thinking that we have lot of extra time to grab some bites, off i went to search for food.. Manage to grab orange juice & cheesy sausage. Just when i finished paying for my food, i saw the crowd already queued. Arghh... the craft just landed!!

    I gulped down my whole cup or OJ, squeezed my cheesy sausage in my handbag and waited to queue. Bla bla bla, i am on the plane, looking for overhead cabin to put my backpack n tote bag (which consist of my laptop cooler, 2 pairs of wedges, Christmas chocolates & handbags). The flight was damn full, instead of row 7 (my seat), i have to put all my stuff at raw 10+. huh.... i knew it's goin to be super mad to get them when we landed. *huh*

    We reached KIA around 8.50pm+, because i was always trying to be the considerate one when comes to embark from the craft.. i waited at my seat.. That was huge mistake!!! I became the few last person to get down from the plane cuz i need to get my stuff from the cabin riteee... Bla bla bla, got to the terminal only to realize that my laptop cooler was missing!!! arggggg dang it!

    Then comes the greatest event of the night, miss located luggage! Seriously, we waited for so long then came the AAsia staff telling us that the luggage must be in the next flight from KL. WHAT THE HECK????? Another 10 more minutes bfr the craft land.... waiting again

    In the mean time, my mum getting mad & angry about us getting home late. So drama queen alrite, asking the whole christmas carolers team to wait for us. We told her to carried on without us.. (Gosh, we are not celebrity.. dont make people hate us and think that we are so demanding alrite.)

    Fast forward, got our missing luggage n claimed my laptop cooler from the AA staff (haha, lost n found huh).... Hop on the car n off back home we went. And when we reached home.. guess what? Almost the entire village was there at my house (ok, lying.. the whole carolers team) OMG, my mum is definitely a drama queen!!! Then drama queen gave us both that make-u-scared eye contact and asked us to shake hands with alll of them in the house!!!!!! And the worst news, my bro revealed that drama queen told others that we insisted for them to wait. Now, that was like zillion shame-ness to us, and hate-ness to the carolers.

    Well, enough of 12th day before..... Just living the home sweet home moments, for now..
    Chiow.

    bila tiada idea~

    Sunday, December 5, 2010
    okei... aku dah lama tak jenguk blog.. pergh, ada 2 entry je utk November?? biar betul, apa aku buat sebulan nie???

    nak menconteng kat blog pun xde idea.. hmm, memandangkan si Wawa
    dah tag benda alah nie..... aku buat saje lah...

    1. Apa benda yang paling penting dalam hidup korang?
    handphone, lappy, broadband, camera,

    2. Benda terakhir yang korang beli menggunakan duit korang?
    a bouquet of flower that comes with a cute plush toy (tigger) for someone dear's convo :)

    3. Dimana tempat korang ingin melangsungkan perkahwinan & tema perkahwinan korang?
    har har har, tak tau....

    4. Adakah korang sedang bercinta?
    today, tomorrow and forever, love is in the air peeps

    5. Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?
    refer to answer above..in the end, we'll never know wat happen

    6. Dimana korang selalu jmpe kekasih korang?
    secret places, mana leh bagitau...

    7. Novel/ Buku/ Majalah terakhir korang beli?
    Novel: Have a little Faith, Mag: CLEO!

    8. Apakah nama penuh korang?
    Miss Fickle, Surname John.. hahaha

    9. Antara mak & ayah, yang mana korang lebih mesra?
    Sama je....

    10. Namakan orang yang betul-betul nak jumpa dalam hidup korang?
    Setakat nie lum ada lagi kot...

    11. Adakah korang basuh baju sendiri?
    Tak lah, En. Wash Mach tolong...

    12. Dimanakah tempat yang korang betul2 nak pergi?
    Wah, sangattt byk tempat especially tempat yg cantik & indah

    13. Pilih salah satu, peluk @ cium?
    Hugs and kisses come together, how could u separate them?

    14. 5 benda yang korang sangat2 sayang dalam hidup korang?
    1) handphone Sony Ericsson merah ku yg dah calar balar
    2) my laptop kesayangan
    3) Doggie dan Giffe, my bears
    4) Camera
    5) lastly, blanket aku yg dah pakai since matrix.. hehe

    15. 5 lagu yang korang paling suka & selalu dengar?
    1) Lagu Zee Avi
    2) OST Eclipse
    3) OST New Moon
    4) Quzzical Juliet the Orange
    5) Lagu SO7

    16. Bila tarikh lahir korang & kat mane korang sambut tahun lepas?
    7 Feb.. celebrated twice by friends & love one, diff. places

    17. 6 orang blogger yang korang nak tag?
    hmmm... sesapa yg nak buat benda alah nie... hehe, sila sila..

    18. Cerita sket blogger pertama yang korang tag
    not applicable.


    creepy voice, creepy mv...

    Sunday, November 14, 2010

    3 fun-loving persona & a wedding

    Saturday, November 6, 2010
    pretty pastel colour hand bouque


    the nervous ring bearer boy, oh so cute :)


    here comes the bride and her proud daddy


    the Borneo entourage (so called)


    cut the cake, cut the cake~ we wanna eat :D


    this time last Saturday, i was at a friend's wedding luncheon :) , together with another two friends. it took me so long to update because i am trying to regain my 100% strength? haha... that's the thing i dislike about going places on car or bus. eventhough i am not the driver, but still the journey made me super fatigue! ahh, blame it on my overly lazy & almost non-existence exercise in my life :P

    the wedding was in Alor Setar. we drove there on Friday noon, after tapau-ed our McD lunch at Jusco Balakong. Before the journey pun also can go shop for DJ's new shirt for the wedding, wat laah we three, a bunch of ....... Exactly at 12.15, we start our adventure to the north, Alor Setaq here we comeeeeee... yeee haaaa!! along the way, we made a lots of pit stop: toilet break lah, quest for fruits, food and drinks lah... pump the gas lah. not to forget all those crazy photo moments in the CAR! oh God, luckily the police only catches people who drive over speedlimits, break the traffic rules, who use the fon >> and not those who are busy with their camera on board... duhh, blame it on VVL.

    Fast forward, we reached Alor Setar at 7.30+ pm and kinda lost how to get to the groom's place. After manage to get there, we have an awesome dinnerrrr.... *slurpppping* bit of casual chit chatting then off we go to our motel, freshen up and time to call it a day.. The church wedding ceremony was at 10am, and we reached there by 9.45am. It's more like a small chapel, with that old and warm feeling to it. The church was full that day, and it was good to meet all those old friends back in Uni years.

    The wedding march's song was cool, Bon Jovi's number~ Thank You For Loving Me~ Ring bearer walked in, then flower girls followed by 4 bride's maid.. Then here come the Bride with her daddy. Oh, i think the daddy eyes got teary and we keep telling the bride not to cry.. hahaha... So much feeling at that moment, all the female in the church seem to be very emotional and i heard someone say that the aunties were crying at the front pews. Talk about wedding, who knows that it can be such an emotional atmosphere for all (even the guys, alrite)

    I am gonna conclude that this is the most sweet and lovely wedding i ever attend before. Wishing Jun n Onnie a blessed marriage life ahead. Like the Pastor said in his sermon, let the marriage be like a triangle where God is on top of it all :)

    And to my travelling partners, let's have another trip together next time. You both be the pilot n co-pilot, i'll be at the back seat as ur Flight Attendant~ assist you with drinks n foods.

    p/s:
    Lock the doors Leave the world outside All I've got to give to you Are these five words when I. Thank you for loving me For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe Thank you for loving me.

    last minute trip...

    Thursday, October 28, 2010
    yeahhhh!!! im going for a road trip tomorrow~~ ages since my last road trip. i think it was a trip with my friend to Sitiawan. Such a challenge coz both of us don't know the route there and we just rely on map and keep calling our host asking from direction :D

    it's a last minute trip because suddenly two of them can't make it. so, here am i jumping on the wagon, to Alor Setar we go.. to attend a wedding...

    aaha.. hope it'll be a good get away also. Come back after the short trip to finish my writing... And praying for a safe journey to and fro.

    just trying your luck?

    Tuesday, October 26, 2010
    wahh, tak sedar blog nie dah berhabuk berdebu... sibuk berjalan kat blog org lupa dah kat blog sendiri.. huhuhu.... sebab lain nya adalaha kerna malas serta takde topik menarik nak crite. ya, memang hidup aku bosan nak lagi lepas habis demo utk kelas STPD...

    hari ni aku nak share sikit pengalaman aku pasal minta kerja, interview kerja dan seangkatan... aku memang dalam usaha nak cari kerja, tapi yang tak permanent lah.. bila ada surat perjanjian kontrak perkhidmatan dengan sesetengah pihak nie mmg susah la nak mengatur benda lain. tu yg nak cari kerja yg membolehkan aku cabut bila dipanggil 'bos sebenar' agak susah :(

    seperti biasa, nak apply kerja cara senang kita daftar lah kat Jobstreet, JobsDB, JenJobs dan sebagainya... pastu buat la resume, isi apa2 yang patut. dah tu rajin-rajin la search job setiap hari. tapi kan, daripada pemerhatian aku lah... graduate bidang sains ni mmg sangat kurang pekerjaan yang untuk bidangnya. yang paling ramai nak upah org adalah customer service/call centre, banking, sales and marketing. bayangkan lah... satu vacancy job as Laboratory Officer tu, ada 800+ orang apply. nie belum lagi tuk jawatan as Lab. Assist, Tech, dan sebagainya. hmmm... maknanya, harus la orang sains nie berlari jauh dari bidang dia kalo nak senang dapat kerja kan.

    beberapa hari lepas, aku kena panggil itvw utk customer service centre satu bank punya outsourcing.. malam sebelumnya, mmg aku study habis pasal bank tu.. siap cari forum lagi (dan mmg ada hot forum pun pasal topik tu)... so the next day, pergi la kat Cyberjaya ni... 1st dia register calon2 temuduga, pastu ada test... oh, sangat cuak ok ada test untuk English (Grammar). aku nie mana la ingat sangat benda2 grammar tu, dulu amek IELTS pun belajar balik lam masa smgu dua...

    pas test ngek tu, org HR dia pggl la itvw.. nie lah part epik gagal for the day. soklan killer dia ada dua (seingat aku)... 1st dia tanya sanggup kerja rotation shift tak? aku jawab yes je, pastu tya dia balik... shift dia masa camne. rupa-rupanya tak seswai sangat la ngan aku yg xde transport sendiri.. (masa aku jawab yes, dia kata aku haflhearted.. ) pastu dia tya berapa lama aku plan nak stay kerja tu. aku punya la jujur cakap la 1thn kot, nak tgk dulu environment kerja camne. hahaha amek ko, terus dia kata tak nak ambik.

    pastu, aku cakap kat dia aku pun tak nak. wakakaka.... tapi satu benda aku belajar daripada pengalaman ni... aku tau jiwa aku mmg hanya kat bidang Teaching, Tutoring atau Lecturing sahaja. aku tau salah aku tak siap lagi master ni, nak lapor diri mengajar dorang kata kena siap. pastu mana nak korek duitt wehhh.... pelik la sesangat, kalo korang bagi je aku jadi penolong lecturer ke, demo ke tutor ke.. bg gaji ciput ke.. aku tak kesah weh, janji aku bekerja. ni nak cari kerja lain, takut tetibe plak kantoi kat korang... mati aku nak byr ganti rugi kan. tapi aku tak berselera kat kerja lain.. aku suka mengajar dan mmg aku nak jd lecturer/tutor. huhu, wahai universiti di hatiku itu, bagilah aku kerja. 7 tahun kontrak, macam mana nak hilangkan jer??? tak boleh kan.....

    p/s: sapa2 tau ada mana vacancy jd lecturer biology, microbiology, science ke apa... bgtau la kat aku.... huhuhu..... :((

    percubaan ke berapa kali ntah...

    Friday, October 8, 2010
    oh, aku dah tukar template blog.. setelah 10 bulan blogging, nie la template yg ke-3. hahaha, nampak sangat la tak kesah kan. sebab-sebab aku malas nak tukar template>>

    *nak cari template, pastu pilih makan masa berjam-jam ( seswai la nama ngan Fickle, susah tul nak decide)

    *dah shortlist yang berkenan di hati, try tukar... jadi tak cun plak. berapa byk daa mo terai.

    *paling malassss, kena adjust colour2 bagi hensem sikit. juling biji mata ai ni okei...

    untuk template ni pun aku dah terai 6,7 template lain-lain. smua tak kena... masalah tul orang pemilih macam aku ni :(

    mulanya tak nak la guna theme yang sangat la jiwang, lebih kurang sama jer ngan template previously. nak wat macam mana, dah yang nie jugak la paling sedap mata memandang layout nyerr... makanya, reminder kepada pembaca blog i yang merapu-rapu, syok sendiri nie:

    ''abaikan theme blog yang ala-ala jiwang tak ingat tu. yg penting tuan punye blog suka, suda''

    sekian, chow cin chow :D

    donate blood, save life!

    Thursday, October 7, 2010
    *google image*

    haloooooo..... hari ni telah derma darah secara tak terancang. last week mmg ada hati nak donate tapi xde kawan plak. so ingatkan dah miggu nie dah xde Blood Drive dah.. rupa-rupanya, ada lagi... yeayy sangat happy.

    so Diana pun ajak la gi derma darah kat KUO (kolej ungku omar, UKM). habis je kelas demo, ktrg g lunch dulu. kasi penuh itu perut baru blh la berbuat bakti kan. sbb ada gak kes before ni aku tipu Doctor tu cakap dah makan. dah siap lepas saringan BloodType, Hemoglobin level semua tup tup, Blood Pressure tak cukup. Hah, amek ko... Doctor tu suruh gi minum milo dulu. huhuhu

    aku terjebak dengan aktiviti derma darah nie since masuk 1st Year degree dulu, adalah dalam 7 tahun dah tapi setakat nie cuma sempat derma 8,9 kali je. haha, bukan apa..kdg2 time ada drive tu kebetulan dalam keadaan takleh derma. aku nie mana la rajin sangat nak gi spital atau BloodBank semata-mata nak derma darah....

    setakat ni, belum ada masalah kot derma darah. yang paling teruk pun masa 2nd time dulu. itu pun sbb pas derma darah, aku gi panjat naik bukit KIY tu balik bilik. elok je sampai kan pusat sumber, terus rasa nak pitam. bayangkan kalo aku terpitam masa ngah daki bukit, tak ke naya aku tergolek-golek mau nya sampai depan DAM kot. huhu.....

    aku nak share gak pasal ke-fobia-an pasal derma darah ni. rata-rata tak nak sebab takut:

    1. sakit kena cucuk jarum. (hek eleh, macam kena gigit kerengga je lah korang)

    2. takut gemuk (tak patutttt, aku turun 2kg adalah)

    3. komplikasi lain ( kalau berat badan lebih 45kg, cukup tido, cukup makan dan sihat tubuh badan, takde masalah punya.)

    4. penyakit berjangkit (jarum steril dan tak recycle, aku tak faham tang mana org leh sangsi benda camni)



    tapi.. ada gak beberapa kes terpencil seperti:

    * nurse baru, masa nak cucuk jarum tu dia tak reti sangat cari urat darah. amek ko, dia gi tercucuk bawah kulit... apa lagi, lebam satu lengan penderma. pasrah je lah.

    * penderma jenis tak bersenam, darah slow giler nak pam penuhkan beg darah. lastnye, darah tu tak pat guna pun sbb takleh nak fill isipadu (hatta paling sikit 250ml sekalipun)

    * hah, yang paling kesian.. org yg mmg nak derma tapi salu tersekat sebab tak lepas paras hemoglobin dan tekanan darah. takpe lah, next time cuba la lagi ;)

    kesimpulannya, hari ni sangat letih pas derma darah, maybe sbb dah sthn tak derma kot.

    p/s: saya darah jenis AB iaitu penerima Universal. saya bangga berdarah AB yang mana hanya merangkumi <10% populasi dunia.

    no, it's not about money

    Saturday, October 2, 2010
    i've graduated with my bachelor degree in 2006. after graduation, i've became temporary teacher for less than a month. it was not because i quit but there was 2 reason at that time,. first the teacher i replaced attended her 3 weeks courses and returned to resume her position. secondly, the school was far away from my rented house in Kajang. i have to 'tumpang' other teachers from Bangi @ Kajang area to go to work. and that was very 'menyusahkan' those teachers and me myself. But overall, teaching was a good experience.

    when the job ended, i've already decided to further my study in the same field as my degree. before that major decision, i have been thinking really hard whether to work or study. looking at the jobs market at that time, i believe graduates from Science & Tech can only go to Sales, Marketing, big company (if u r good enough), and of course lots of my friends end up in KPLI and DPLI.

    i applied for my master in UKM and discussed with my supervisor about it. due to the fact that the program i chose is offer only in research so research it be. fast forward, i enrolled for my master, went to my classes, and applied for scholarships. God is very good to me, He gave me a chance to land myself a tutorship from a local university. in the beginning, everything was so beautiful. the studies, the scholarship and all of the elements. the spirit was very high, and all i can imagine is the ending to this beautiful reality.

    times past. it's 2010. in my imagination, i should be working now and earning money at this age. but.. but.. here i am still stuck in my study. the study period extended but the scholarship money ended long time ago. to make everything worst, they don't want me coz i ain't finish my master (just the thesis part, writing!!) and i can't look for other jobs coz i'm bonded to them (contract, and big sum of money to compensate)

    ah, what a frustration to have a nightmare at the end. the stress build up too, each and every single day. i can't get back that passion i have before to end all these but i am trying every day i wake up in the morning. you know what break my heart the most?

    it was when people keep asking you these questions:

    A: what are you doing now, working already?
    me: no lah, still struggling with my study.

    A: study what more?
    me: master laa, so long also not finish yet.

    A: you want to earn more money maa.......


    F.Y.I if i want to makes more money, i'll go work once i've graduated... save money and do some serious business, alrite. what, you think once i get this master then sure i am gonna get good job that pay big money? nope. coz in the end it's the working experiences that matters out there!

    no, it's not about money that i am all in this deep troubles now. it's about doing what i want and what i love. it's not easy to be compare with your fellow friends who are already working for 3,4 years. their handsome paychecks, their possessions and such. it makes a pessimist feel like a failure, loser and down.

    lucky, i am born optimistic. i know that what i endures now are gonna be a catalyst for me in the future. it is not gonna be easy to finally break this cocoon and comes out as butterfly. but i know eventually, one day it will. look at the cocoon, can you find anything pretty on it that indicate the beauty of a butterfly? -- no, aite.

    and i leave us a reminder. next time, when you have a friend or any person you know having problem just like i share here... please don't say that it's all about money. instead, just give us words of encouragement and an understanding smile. but if can, a big hug and handshake mostly make our day better :)


    spageti kukus???

    Monday, September 27, 2010
    biar betul, tajuk tu spageti kukus? kalo baked spaghetti tu biasa jugak kan dengar...

    hehe, inilah resipi ciptaan untuk lunch harinie. sebab sangat xde mood nak makan nasi dan ditambah takde benda utk masak kat rumah so mula lah otak ligat berfikir apa nak masak.

    korek punya korek stok makanan, jumpa lah: spageti sebungkus, sos spageti Kimball 3 sudu makan berbaki dalam peti ais, sosej, susu sejat dan marjerin. nie hah method spageti kukus aku hari nie...


    1. rebus spageti sampai lembut, tuskan air. letak tepi.

    2. sementara tggu spageti, potong halus bawang merah, putih dah sosej.

    3. goreng bawang putih, merah dan sosej halus menggunakan satu sudu marjerin.

    4. dah naik bau, masukkan susu sejat sikit (ikut masing2 la), pastu sos spageti (mushroom)

    5. masukkan spageti, gaul rata boleh tambah serbuk lada hitam dan biarkan 1 minit.

    6. tutup api, masukkan semua bahan tadi dalam loyang dan tambah lagi susu sejat dalam suku gelas.

    7. tutup loyang guna aluminium, dan kukus la 10-15minit.

    hasilnyer, aku tgh makan la nie... sdap gak. sbb spageti dia jadi lembut. sorry la xdapat nak share makan... share gambar je boleh... :)



    nyummehh !!

    another old song...

    Sunday, September 26, 2010
    it's almost midnight and i am still 'menjulingkan mata' with all my graph in excel sheets. ohhhh, gonna dream lines and numbers tonight definitely...


    another rainy evening it was, bit cold but it's ok tho. i prefer cold than hot weather. the only problem with rainy day are my laundry. but nevermind, no clothes to wash now :) as i do my multitasking works --> excel, words, FB, twitter, email, Yahoo, blogs<-- i played my pre-set playlist in Media Player.

    haha, don't expect my playlist to include all those newest and hottest tracks they played on radio. you'll be surprise at what you listens to. and yes, i only have 2,3 playlist with 30-40 songs to the max in 1 list. and yes again, i'll play the same playlist over and over and over again-- in one day and night, in one week until i think it's the time to shift to another list. i

    wonder why i don't know the latest songs... then i remember that i don't listen to FM for ages! don't ask me other sources.. i Youtube when i need to search for evergreen n oldies (hahaah, now you can laugh at me). i've tried Lady Gaga on my playlist and after 2,3 rounds-- that's enough. too much of Gaga is not good for me :P

    so in the end, i play on player what i like regardless of the genres. it may be pop or rock or jazz or oldies but for sure they must stir thousand feelings n emotions in me.. like this song im gonna share (again). i like the lyric and the whole song... blah, njoy my 'orang tua' taste for music :)


    Dearest -Buddy Holly (Juno's OST)

    Dearest - though you're the nearest to my heart
    please don't ever - umm ya
    ever say we'll part

    You scold and you were so bold
    yes together - umm ya
    our love will grow old - umm ya
    our love will grow old

    You may be a million miles away
    please believe me - umm ya
    when you hear me say
    I love you - I love you

    Come home - keep me from these sleepless nights
    try my love again - umm ya
    I'm gonna treat you right - umm ya
    I'm gonna treat you right


    WAnt to sooth your ear?



    sejukkkkk.......

    Saturday, September 25, 2010
    waaaa.... siok giler hari ni. hujan dari pagi pastu berhenti kejap.
    petang sambung hujan!! besttt sangat ok.. sebab sejuk dan lega je rasa nye.

    well, aku ni kalo hujan mula la rasa mood sentimental...
    sedih, rindu, sebak, pilu, happy semua ada.
    memang tak leh nak diibaratkan dengan kata-kata.

    tapi, aku ada lagu yang mendendangkan semua perasaan yang terbuku tu.
    lagu ni mmg sangat seswai dgn cuaca hari ini.
    aku share lirik kat sini je.

    Lagu: Today is no Sunday by White Shoes & The Couples Company.

    Its rainy season and the grey clouds
    complete the theme
    the rusty fence, the noisy thunder
    creepy storm and the falling trees
    Television, tea and coffee
    all the books are getting dusty

    If there is a way i will catch up for you
    visit the spring

    Where the ices are melting
    and the new plants are growing
    flower is blooming
    and lovers are kissing


    watch the clips here:




    ~a bittersweet experience...

    Sunday, September 12, 2010
    *achooooo!!!! ... blog berdebu sebab dah lama takde update. tambah lagi *achoo!! sebab selsema :(

    Sebelum tu, nak wish kat semua Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin.
    Dan memandangkan raya ni, UKM cuti midsem selama 10 hari, aku dan beberapa kawan lagi saja la cari partime kat mana-mana fastfood. Biasanya time raya, mmg dorang sangat memerlukan partimers.. So jalan2 la area kajang n bangi, gi tanya kat KFC, McD dan Kenny Rogers.

    Last-last dapat la kat McD, yang 24 jam dan siap ada Drive-Tru dan Delivery..memang busy gilaa la branch yang ktrg dapat jadi casual crew ni. First kena training 4 jam, selama 2hari. Pastu start keja 8 jam.. Yang training kerja 4 jam pun dah rasa nak pengsan je keletihan dia. Sekali masuk shift 8jam, mmg terus sakit kepala tahap migrain tambah demam selsema. Penambah perasa pulak, sakit lenguh kaki berdiri straight 8 jam! Gileeer yang teramat, mmg tak leh rest langsung keje ni.

    Sebab aku ni time training dah dicampak kat drive-tru, maka hari2 seterusnya aku mmg terpacak kat drive-tru je lah. Amek makanan yg dah diorder customer, masuk plastik. Prepare drinks, masuk plastik. Makanan lambat siap, tggu n g hntar kat kereta customer. Memang otak n tangan kena sepantas kilat, sebab nak kena jaga masa serve customer dalam masa yg plg singkat. Tapi kalo dah ramai sgt orang, mana la nak sempat nak jaga masa... tambah2 lagi kalo order sangat bykkkk.....

    Kalo time xde cstmer, tak leh berdiri saje (*mmg istilah duduk tak wujud kat mcd ni). Kena lap kaunter, stock up cawan, straw, sos, ais dan apa2 je lah yg patut. Dan aksi berdiri sambil menyilang tangan/lengan adalah dilarang sama sekali! Kalo nak buat juga, tggu je la kena tempelak ngan manager. Dan disebabkan berat badan yang tak ideal ditambah ngan aktiviti berdiri 8 jam (dan lari2 anak) .... sakit tapak kaki, lenguh otot tak yah nak cite lah.. kalo de mesin urut mmg aku dah duduk tido je kat mesin tu :(

    Dan aku dah pecahkan rekod diri sendiri gak, iaitu rekod penggunaan panadol terbanyak. Aku kalo blh mmg elakkan makan painkiller ni, tapi nak wat camne kan.. nak kerja tapi dah migrain hari-hari.... So dalam masa 4 hari, aku dah telan sepapan panadol biasa dan sepapan actifast.. and still counting papan yg seterusnya... bahaya untuk hati neh... Bahu pun dah naik lenguh sebab dok menunduk cedok ais & angkut ais. Tampal koyok sudah.....

    Huhu, nak tau... Masa ni la aku sangat bersyukur atas semua kemudahan dan kesenangan yang aku dapat selama ni, Ye lah, bak kata mummy dearest... Ktrg ni anak2 yg lahir dalam keadaan senang, tak pernah hidup susah macam dia. Berkebun, bersawah... berjual hasil tanaman kat pasar tani. Menoreh getah, tanam jagung... mum nak sambung form6 dulu pun nenek awal2 dah sound kate tak leh nak support coz xde duit. Dulu mummy penah gak cakap kat ktrg, kalo campak ktrg kerja keras kat kebun ke, sawah ke, ataupun jadi waitress kat kedai makan... confirm tak larat. Kan betul cakap mummy dearest....

    Nie pun, aku mmg jadikan duit gaji tu sbgi motivasi. Kalo mengenangkan sakit n penat.. memang lama dah tak nak buat kerje ni. Nasib baik la tggl 3,4 hari je lagi. Kalo nak bandingkan bayaran sejam seorang pekerja McD dan tutor/demonstrator/pensyarah sambilan.... hmm, sangat jauhhhhhhh beza nye. Oh aku insaf, pas ni aku tak nak malas dah. Aku nak belajar baik-baik, kerja baik-baik..... Bukan la aku kata org yg keje McD ni tak belajar tggi, cuma aku tak sesuai kot untuk kerja bidang dorang ni. Dan, mungkin sebab aku tak biasa bersusah payah, membanting tulang untuk dapat apa yg aku dapat. Kalo bersusah payah bab belajar tu, mmg lain cerita... Tu benda yang dah jadi rutin hidup aku. So, ni adalah rezeki dan minat masing2. Apa-apa pun, aku kagum dan salute ngan dorang yang bertahan kerja kat McD.. nak nak lagi crew biasa, kena marah ke teriak ke, maintain saja mengucapkan tq.

    hmmmm..... ini memang suatu pengalaman yang pahit dan manis :)

    Cornflakes cookies...

    Saturday, September 4, 2010

    my colourful cornflakes cookies~

    Raya is around the corner, and my housemate asked us to bake some raya cookies for her. Because she bought an oven just for us to bake cookies, so better fulfill her wishes rite. The initial plan was to bake Cornflakes and Ghee biscuits, as well as Choc chips cookies (housemates special request that is). But the CHEAP TESCO oven was really a shit man...

    Just used it for 2-3 hours baking the cornflakes cookies,

    then can't heat up ANYMORE!!!! still waiting for my dear housemate to come back from Kampung and bring the receipt and ask about the warranty.. haii..

    Just to share with you the Cornflakes cookies recipe... The all time favourite of my family back home.. During CNY, Gawai or Christmas...

    Ingredients (350 pieces)
    500 gm butter
    400gm castor sugar
    2 eggs
    700gm flour
    500gm cornflakes
    4 teaspoon baking powder
    cherry/ choc chips/colourful chips (deco)
    vanilla essence

    Method:
    1. beat butter & sugar till fluffy.
    2. add in eggs and vanilla essence.
    3. mix flour n baking powder in other bowl.
    4. pour crust/ smashed cornflakes to the flour.
    5. mix together with the beaten butter.
    6. shape the dough (according to you) or for me i prefer them in the small biscuit cup.
    7. put deco./ topping on the cookies.
    8. bake at 180'C for 15minutes.

    sakit gusi :'(

    Tuesday, August 31, 2010
    wuwuwu... sakit gusi seharian.. makan panadol pun xde kesan.
    sakit gigi camni, mood pun hilang ntah ke mana :'(
    nak makan pun xde feel. sangat terseksa jiwa raga ku!

    tadi ada try cari home remedies utk sakit gusi ni..
    ni mesti sakit sebab gigi bongsu nak terjah keluar.
    sakit, sakit sampai nak kuar air mata dah...
    sakit naik sampai ke kepala dan telinga plak tu.

    setakat jam 9pm ni, aku dah try macam-macam petua
    untuk sakit gusi...antaranya:

    1. sapu Bonjela ( kesan kebas 10 minit je, pastu sakit balik)

    2. kumur mulut guna air garam (xde kesan pun)

    3. sapu garam kat gusi (aduii, tggi la tekanan darah aku pasni tertelan garam)

    4. letak ais kat pipi yg sakit (ais cair cepat je...)

    5. campur secubit lada dan 1/4 garam, sapu kat tempat yg sakit ( berkesan utk 20 minit)

    ..... nanti nanti aku surf lagi petua lain. huhu, jgn la esok pun sakit lagi :(

    my new pet..

    Saturday, August 28, 2010

    yes! i got myself a new pet.. adopted from a friend's friend.
    at first, i thought that it may be a Guinea pig but after some
    research online, just knew it is actually a type of Syrian
    Hamster @ Golden Hamster.

    well, because it was misunderstood as Guinea, then just named it--->Guinea (yeah, very not creative...) Guinea love to bite itscage non-stop when it is awake. Sleep most of the day time andvery active at night.

    this afternoon, Guinea manage to amused us with her ability toeat and stored LOTS of food in the cheek pouch. i am so worried that the pouch gonna burst!

    Welcome to the family, Guinea.
    Now, please be good to Didie, Diego & Donnathe hamsters.
    And be careful with Miss Berry the kittie.

    ~Despicable Me!!!

    Friday, August 27, 2010
    seperti yang telah dijangka kan, dah 2bulan tak jejak cinema tgk movie..
    wuwuwu, sangat tragis sebab dah miss sangat banyak filem best dan yg
    lagi buat merana sbb tak sempat nak tgk Eclipse pun :((



    last Friday my dear buat surprise, jeng jeng jeng...
    rupa-rupanya dia ada kat sini, boleh la jumpa kejap and plan nak tgk movie.
    survey punya survey, last2 tgk Despicable Me & The Last Airbender.
    Tapi nak cerita pasal Despicable Me je tau, yg satu tu hampeh!



    Despicable Me nie cite pasal sorang penjahat@Villain yang bernama Gru.
    Cita-cita dia nak jadi penjahat terhebat kat dunia. Status tu dah tercalar
    sebab ada penjahat lain dah berjaya mencuri PIRAMID! maka, Gru terpaksa
    buat plan baru, plan baekkk punya! iaitu....MENCURI BULAN! plan terhebat.

    Untuk curi bulan, dia kena curi Shrinking Machine dulu, mesin ni macam
    lampu pengecil Doraemon pun ade gak aku tgok fungsi dia. Tapi mesin tu
    terlebih dahulu dicuri oleh Vector, si pencuri piramid.

    So, Gru pun menggunakan 3 org budak pompuan iaitu anak yatim, Dia angkat
    dorang jadi anak tapi tujuan sebenarnya nak guna bebudak tu sbgi umpan
    utk masuk rumah Vector. Oh ye, Gru ni ada sidekicks yg comel... Minion!

    Minion nie watak dia ala-ala Oompa Lumpa dalam cite Charlie & the Choc.
    Factory. Pendek, warna kuning.. ade mata satu, ada yg mata dua tapi mmg
    tersangat la comelllll...

    3 anak angkat Gru tu pun sgt comel especially Agnes.... ayat paling melekat
    kat otak aku ni hah...

    "it's so fluffy im gonna die!''
    - dia cakap ayat ni masa dia kat funfair n suruh si Gru main tembak2 alien.
    sbb dia nak kan hadiah utama satu patung Unicorn.. cumell gilerrrrr.... \

    babak plg best plak, masa para Minions berbaris kat luar bilik tidor bebudak
    3 org tu sbb nak minta Gru kiss goodnite dorang gak... so sweet :)

    meh, kita tgk poster movie ni....

    ni poster filem, nampak tak para minions, Gru dan anak2 dia?




    ni la minions comel aku cakap.... sgt cute. ada nama lagi dorang ni.




    Gru dan anak anak: Margo, Edith & Agnes. Si Agnes yg ada tocang pegang mug.




    Ni Vector, pencuri piramid.. muka nerd tak leh blah!


    p/s: i miss movie time with you :)

    ~what every smart girl should remember......

    Wednesday, August 25, 2010

    1. when you receives sweet text messages remember to smile, and deletes it afterward.

    2. think about how to earn money, not how to save it.

    3. when angry, count till 30 then try to talk.

    4. buy on your own what you like, don't hope for others to give you.

    5. drink less juices but eat more fruits, eat less junk food but drink more water, sit less stand
    more, talk less do more.

    6. never let another man to love you like your dad, so the most loved is still dad.

    7. don't miss the same person 24 hours, share some with families and friends.

    8. don't ever think that when you found yourself a rich man then you'll have everything. young
    girls in this whole wide world is like Coke on racks, it doesn't matter you drink it or not.

    9. once eaten don't ever vomit it, so think clear before you eat.

    10. when lonely don't listen to slow tempo songs or moody. stand up, work up or hang out.

    11. when people see through you, pretend that you don't know.

    12. make sure the one that works and the one that having fun, is not the same you.

    13. apply sunscreen but some sun exposure will lighten your day too.

    14. when set your eyes on thing that you want to buy, don't borrow money. think wisely and do
    it with no regret.

    15. do not use your boyfriend birth date as atm pin.

    16. never ever complain to your ex boyfriend.

    17. consider the time of walking and its intensity before deciding which shoes to put on whenever
    you go out.

    18. read good books, renew spirit, improve life quality.

    19. can wear cheap clothes but remember that you are more than its worth.

    20. supplements shoud be more than make up items. inner beauty and strength shine more than
    physical attractiveness.

    21. make writing diary a habit, never bother about your writing and languages.

    22. you can disagree but learn to respect.

    23. pay attention to the inner heart but never neglect the appearance too.

    24. when undecided, let times help you. if still undecided, decide before you speak. it is better to
    make a mistake rather than regret.

    25. smile when you are on the phone, the person on the phone can hear your smile.

    26. pay your debts, do your saving-monthly.

    27. knows about the trends, but doesn't mean that you have to follow.

    28. let your look define your age.

    29. believe in the existence of love and mr. right. but before that, do not hesistate to share life
    with mr. wrong.

    30. when someone you like don't text you back, never text him again.

    31. never let anyone become the reason to torment yourself. refuse to eat, cries, isolation,
    depression and such are all what silly people do. it's alright to be silly once in a while, life is not
    necessarily smart all the time.

    32. your man may not be rich, but must makes you feel safe and happy.

    33. when you decide to leave someone, do it quick. when decide to love someone, takes longer
    time and observe whether he suit you.

    34. takes your own leisure time by preparing good foods, put some soft music, read good book or
    just sleep.

    35. learn to deal with hardship. some words better keep rotten in the herat, some bitterness better be forgotten unsound. when you experieced all these, you have grown up and know much.

    36. in all occasions, remember to watch your attitude. learn to say thank you, please and sorry.
    when you do the wrong things, must apologize and be a better person.


    :: this is not my own writing. i translate them from a mandarin texts and sure there will be lots of things, lost in translation. i don't believe in Google translate tools (they are craps.. haha) and excuse my broken English. ::

    ~the award goes to.....

    Saturday, August 21, 2010
    put your hands together, *claps claps....

    the Friendly blogger award goes to....Miss Fickle! ehemm, ehemm... teks ucapan terima kasih.



    ''thanks to Wawa for the award :) ''


    actually, tak tau pun apa benda ni. dah Wawa tag... layan jer lah. heheh... sonok la pulak. rasa macam dapat award besarrr punya!

    rasa macam friendly la sangat, follower setakat 10 org, tu tak tau berapa ketul je yg baca blog merapu aku neh.... wee wee, tapi blogging best sebab dapat merapu dan syok sendiri!


    hmm, Wawa kata dah kena tag kena jawab soklan hebat ni.. soklan dia ialah...
    *jeng jeng jeng...... 7 makanan favourite time berbuka puasa?? *akak tak puasa lah, nak kena jawab gak ke soklan neh? takpe lah, akak anggap je masa dinner ngan housemate yang berbuka puasa tu adalah masa berbuka jugak, aci kan.. kan kan....


    1. air mata kucing! meow meow *air ni bagus utk buang panas

    2. pecel lele @ikan keli (the best kat hentian, full house masa berbuka.. masa hari2 biasa pun sama)

    3. ayam goreng rempah (nak rempah tambahan extraa.. sedap!)

    4. semalam makan GCB McD... (ni patut jadi main menu dorang gak lah, baru best)

    5. tomyam *saya hantu benda bersup, sup tulang sup daging dan segalanya.

    6. nasi ayam hainan style (harus rasa macam nasi ayam SCR! sgt susah nak cari kat sini, the best ever so far adalah Chee Meng BB followed by The Chicken Rice shop dan stall kat foodcourt the Garden, Midval.

    7. ikan pari Portugis, kat Oasis, midvalley (seyes sedap, meliur neh...)




    ok, sudah selesai buat entry utk award dari Wawa ni... hmm, sorry saya malas nak tag org lain utk ini. sbb tak ramai yg baca blog saya :)

    adios!

    you put a smile on my face.....

    Thursday, August 19, 2010

    you put a smile on my face, when i call you in the morning
    and you answer me with your dreamy voice.

    i smile wider when you call to wake me up some random morning
    and i wear them whole day long.

    you put a smile on my face, when you makes me a cup of hot tea
    during a cold rainy day or night.

    we smile together when we drink our tea, with that Aunty Anne's
    cinnamon sugar pretzel, and cinnamon rolls.

    you put a smile on my face when you talk excitedly
    about your pets, the cats and the little furry animals.

    i smile remembering how i love the smell of your perfume,
    and how yummy it makes you.

    you put a smile on my face with your unexpected moves,
    plans and surprises... no matter how big or small it was.

    i put a smile on your face with my act cute funny faces
    when you tell me something sweet.

    i make you smile even though sometimes i am in the blues,
    having to deal with the monster in me.

    i smile at every single thing of you, things that makes me
    remember you and all the memories.

    but i want you to know that you never fail to make me smile,
    when you tell me how much you miss me and love me.

    you put a smile on my face each and every single day,
    since the day you tell me that i am the best thing that ever happen to you.

    :) :) :) :) :) :) :)



    ...kaBhiE kaBhiE mEin LiFe...

    Saturday, August 14, 2010
    ...kabhie kabhie mein life? bunyi pelik je kan, bahasa apa ntah.. ni dapat daripada filem Hindi aku tengok petang tadi. Kabhie kabhie mein life ni maksud dia kadangkala dalam kehidupan.. sangat catchy kalau sebut. makanya, hari ni aku tulis entry guna tajuk ni. sebab banyak sangat benda yang terjadi dalam hidup, kadangkala kita terlepas pandang hal yang kecil atau remeh.

    sebelum tu, aku nak bagitau follow up cheesecake dalam entry sebelum ni :P Cheese cake tu sangat sedap tapi agak cair lah. hampir 2 jam gak aku kukus dia, last-last give up nak tggu dia keras. aku off api, bagi dia sejuk suhu bilik pastu sumbat la dalam peti sejuk untuk semalaman. esoknya tak sabar potong dan ngap lam mulut. memang sedap lahh... rasa cheese lemak berkrim disukai ramai. next time kalo buat, kena remind diri sendiri tak yah bubuh fresh milk. rasa-rasanya itu la penyebab kek aku lembik semacam jer, nasib baek lah masih boleh dimakan ;)

    minggu lepas juga, pesta konvo ke-38 kat ukm. kalo ikutkan planning dulu-dulu, aku dan kawan-kawan memang la nak konvo sesama tahun ni. tapi apakan daya, memang mencabar sangat perjalanan master ktrg ni. salah kat attitude sendiri, faktor penyelia, faktor chemical dan expertise dan mesin smua. pendek kata memang sangat memberikan dugaan, ada masa memang rasa nak give up je. semangat tu mmg lama dah hilang, nak kutip balik pun memerlukan keberanian yang besar. labmates n aku semua 4 orang, sampai sekarang ni memang lum ada yg grade lagi (aih.. macam badi je kan tapi mesti la bukan, ni pemalas namanya). kadang-kadang terfikir juga, apa lah yang susah sangat nak habiskan master ni tapi ye lah.. we human can only plan, everything else in God's hands.

    dan masa aku melepak ngan kawan-kawan kat bakery kegemaran, tiba-tiba terlintas sesuatu kat fikiran aku. ada kawan ktrg kat lab lain konvo tahun ni. kiranya dia adalah yg pertama berjaya konvo dari pusat pengajian biosains batch aku. dia ni sempoi je, dari degree sampai lah master. kalo ikutkan expectation, mmg ada ramai lagi batch ktrg yg buat research gempak tambah supervisor dorang memang baik gilerr. tup tup, kawan yg low profile ni plak yang grad dulu. so, aku mencetuskan suatu idea ni..

    buah fikiran aku:

    walau betapa baik bahan @ asal sesuatu benda atau manusia, in the end bergantung kepada persekitarannya juga. contohnya, kalau student tu dapat 1st class honour dan memang rajin orang nya dalam study tapi kalau keadaaan dan kelengkapan makmal tidak sempurna ditambah lagi dengan penyelia yang mungkin kurang menyelia.. akhirnya>> kita boleh teka apa kesudahannya nanti. seperti juga kalau buat kek keju (alang-alang dah cerita cheese cake tadi kan), kita guna keju paling mahal, begitu juga bahan-bahan lain. tetapi, kalau pembikin kek tidak mahir, kalau suhu oven tidak seswai.......cheesecake tidak akan menjadi seperti yg diharapkan.

    dalam minggu ni jugak, aku membaca semula buku Tuesday with Morrie tulisan Mitch Albom. Ni dah masuk kali ke-3 dah kot aku baca. Sangat suka buku author ni sbb apa yg dia tulis membuatkan aku berfikir, merenung dan refleksi balik kehidupan aku. Apa sebenarnya yang memberi erti kepada kehidupan kita? Adakah harta benda, status atau kebendaan yang lain.... atau adakah ia berkaitan dengan apa yang kita berikan kepada orang di sekeliling kita? Adakah dengan berbuat sesuatu yang dilakukan oleh semua orang itu memberi makna dan kepuasan kepada diri kita?

    dan semalam juga aku mendapat berita bahawa uncle bestfren aku coma sebab heart attack. terkedu masa kawan aku call, terkejut dan sedih. walaupun tak la rapat mana pun dengan uncle tu tapi memikirkan yang anak-anak dia masih kecil... memang menahan sebak di dada juga masa tu. kehidupan, memang tak terjangka.. sekejap ketawa sekejap berendam air mata. in that blink of an eye or a heartbeat, anything can happen! mengkombinasikan buku bacaan aku dengan perihal uncle, pengajarannya.... if you were to tell anybody how you care or love them, tell them now when you still have time. don't wait for the right moment, the right moment is now!

    pray to God that he have mercy on Uncle George and works His miracle on him. and pray that his family will be strong and surrender everything unto Him.

    of cheese cake & Girly Tuesday

    Tuesday, August 10, 2010
    a friend of mine, finally graduated from UKM with Bachelor in Sc. and that is after a long five years of struggles & hardship. knowing about all the ups and downs, frustration and discouragements... i only have one sentence for her, GOOD JOB! now that you have succeeded this journey, please have a pleasant trips in the future aite :)
    big CONGRATULATIONS my dear friend, and please pray for mine which God's willingly, next year perhaps. and also thanks for the lunch just now.

    today, the Girly Tuesday with my housemates. clothes hunting, shoes viewing, and foods raving... but in the end, only get to buy foods. which is good because i can't buy anything useless now. (bankrap sudah maa) oh ya, bought a new cage for Diego the hamster also. Diego is now running happily in his wheel in his new home. Yeay!

    cheese cake? finally, manage to bake one, but i don't think this 1st attempt is a success. last time i checked the steamer, the cheese top is still jelly-like, after 2hours of baking. aih, i let it cool first then put inside fridge lah.. tomorrow i let u know ;)

    very tired today, too much of walking from point to point. ah, i need good foot massage, hot tea & great music.

    till then, my dears :)



    i remember...

    Monday, August 9, 2010
    I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
    I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
    I remember.. All the things that we shared,
    and the promise we made, just you and I
    I remember.. All the laughter we shared,
    all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

    Do you remember..?
    When we were dancing in the rain in that december
    And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
    I remember.. All the things that we shared,
    and the promise we made, just you and I
    I remember.. All the laughter we shared,
    all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

    I remember..

    The way you read your books, yes I remember
    The way you tied your shoes, yes I remember
    The cake you loved the most, yes I remember
    The way you drank you coffee, I remember
    The way you glanced at me, yes I remember

    When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
    When we were dancing in the rain in that december
    And the way you smile at me, yes I remember

    ~a song from Mocca an Indonesian group~

    Beloved bakery ^_^

    Saturday, August 7, 2010
    for my beloved bakery, nZAR bakery in Pusanika UKM :)

    apa yang so special about this bakery? well, kalau tengok luaran & pilihan pastri dia memang lah tak de apa-apa yang sangat boleh dibanggakan..

    bakeri ni terletak kat tingkat paling bawah bangunan Pusat Aneka (PUSANIKA) UKM Bangi. dulu-dulu masa undergrade 1st year, kat tempat tu kosong je xde pape. so masuk tahun ke2 or ke3 baru la ada bakeri menapak kat situ. Pakcik & makcik tuan punya bakeri ni pun sangat baik n sweet jer tengok dorang.

    yang menarik hati pasal tempat ni, satu>> suasana dia. Pakcik suka pasang lagu klasik yang sangat best dan membelai jiwa. kadang-kadang lagu Beatles, Rock & Rolls... kdg2 radio stesen English Malaysia ni. paling best kalau oldies yang familiar tgh main, macam nak duduk je kat bakeri ni sampai tutup. wuwuwu...... few days ago, pergi makan lasagna kat situ, pakcik pasang lagu keroncong pulak. byi macam Kartina Dahari.. terus aku buat aksi gila bayang kat situ ngan member sorang. member pun geleng kepala je tgk pehal la aku ni minat lagu yg boleh dibuat lullaby... :p

    sebab kedua suka pergi sini, sebab ada kopi leh tambah susu n gula ikut suka hati sendiri. so xde la nak komplen manis sgt or pahit sgt kan... dulu dulu, ktrg bertiga suka sangat gi lepak kat sini petang-petang. rasanya time tu, pakcik n makcik kenal sgt dah muka ktrg neh.

    makanan favourite, semestinya Lasagna dan Blueberry choc cheesecake dia! sedapppp hingga menjilat sudu weiiii...... dulu de shepherd pie pun sodapppp... tapi yang pastri lain2 tu kurang sikit laa....

    hmmmm... tetiba tulis entry ni sbb windu ngan suasana hari tu diiringi irama keroncong! dan sebab nye juga windu ngan someone masa dgr lagu tu....

    keh la, free promo utk pakcik bakery je kat sini.

    ape-ape pun, saya sangat suka bakeri pakcik!

    one nite @iCity

    Tuesday, August 3, 2010

    colourful pine tree, shining brightly in the night

    but nothing beat the real green mossy tree.


    left right, left right

    let's snap pictures all night.


    ah, here you are my favourite colour blue

    don't know why but i love the hue


    worms, dragon or lanterns

    but sure nice are the patterns


    in the land of the Far Far Away

    there are fairy tales trees

    white, blue, pink and purple

    hey wait... i saw a red heart

    right there in the middle of pines

    that is so sweet and lovely,

    love is everywhere

    even in the place that you never thought of

    all you have to do...

    see a little more closer.


    for my lovely pets

    Monday, August 2, 2010
    *give me yummy treats please... *wink wik
    this hammy is Diego. now have to live inside tiny container,
    all because its mother fight & bite him.



    * spin the wheel, spin the wheel!
    my lovely Didi the Pirate
    some kind of special to me cause one of its eye is blind
    and very small, as if suffering dwarfism syndrome.
    poor Didi, hope you survive and keep cheering me up,
    will you...?


    *Lotso the mama, having sweet dream
    of nuts & popcorns & carrots.
    she grew double the original size in just 1 month!
    i am a good owner, yeayy :)


    *Finally, Dona the furball...
    if it is a cat, then it will be very nice to play with
    very round, and love to eat.
    sooner will be fat like Lotso.


    *this Guinea piggie belong to someone else
    looking at their pictures makes me wanna
    keep one also....
    please, i want Guinea pig.. just the normal one
    don't want the long fur (like above)
    by the way, i named her Michiko, can??
    boleh lah dearr.... ;)

    august!

    Sunday, August 1, 2010

    mamma mia! august is here...
    sangat cepat masa berlalu,
    later will be fasting month
    then come Syawal.
    Soon, Deepavali..
    without we knowing,
    ring ring ring
    the jinggle bells song
    is coming to town!

    sangat cuak, desperate sebenarnya
    nak bagi ending yang baik utk tahun 2010 ini.


    count your blessing :)

    Friday, July 30, 2010
    people say that by counting your blessing or give thanks for 3 things in your life, this act will significantly increase your positive attitudes toward life. so, when i woke up earlier than usual this morning i've decided to ... count my blessings. Dear God, thank so much for...

    1. my long night sleep without unpleasant dreams.
    2. for recovery of my migraine from yesterday morning.
    3. another day given to my life on Earth.
    4. for the water supply that finally here after 2days of leaking main pipe.
    5. good broadband connection everyday
    6. always have food for me to munch and nibble every time i need to munch.
    7. my supportive and caring friends, who will always there with shoulders and ears.
    8. understanding families members.
    9. my cute pet, the Hamsters that will never fail to amuse me.
    10. thesis supervisor, for giving us new hopes and light to the problems.
    11. the dearest one.

    ...... and of course, the blessings continue each single days.

    ::when i need you...

    Thursday, July 29, 2010
    All my childhood years, i used to sit at the back of my daddy's car with my sister and rocking our ears with evergreen oldies romantic songs! be it the English songs or some other tracks from Indonesian singers.. oh my, what a bliss listening to the melancholic songs, the country ones especially. My family once lived in Sibu and that was like 7 hours drive from hometown, Kuching.

    Every school holiday or some long weekends, dad will drive the whole family back home. I remembered that we woke up very early in the morning just to make sure that we manage to board the Ferry in Durin or Lanang on time. On time means, no 2km queue or wanting to shout at the STUPID drivers who so SELFISH cut the lines!!! With 7 hours journey, all we the kids can do... sleep, eat, shout at each other then sleep again. In between there was pit stop to answer nature's call (public toilet, bushes, drains...), and of course constantly nagging my dad the driver. He is the one who willingly change the cassette tape to side B or change to another tapes, or switch to AM radio.

    Well, all those 6 years of listening to oldies. Dreams dreams dreams, Jambalaya, Hey Mr Postman, Teardrops in Your Eyes, 500 miles.. just a few that i recalled.. No wonder until this day, i still have the spot for oldies :) There are few songs i proudly declared that are my all time favourite of course...

    But today, i just want to share one song that remind me of my friend in Uni. It's her favourite song too and i will always join the sing-along session with her in her room when she suddenly get in the mood of, hmm.. singing? And i am kinda pissed off when a TV commercial (cooking oil) used the song in BM version. Wahh, how dare you spoil my favourite song!!!

    Googled the lyric just now and sang it all alone. Wah, suddenly i am hit with melodramatic feeling again.. Hey dear, if you did manage to have time and read this post, this one is for you :)
    Oh, enough said, here the lyric for the song
    When I Need You.


    When I need you
    I just close my eyes and I'm with you
    And all that I so wanna give you
    It's only a heartbeat away

    When I need love
    I hold out my hands and I touch love
    I never knew there was so much love
    Keeping me warm night and day

    Miles and miles of empty space in between us
    The telephone can't take the place of your smile
    But you know I won't be travelin' forever
    It's cold out but hold out and do I like I do

    When I need you
    I just close my eyes and I'm with you
    And all that I so wanna give you babe
    It's only a heartbeat away

    It's not easy when the road is your driver
    Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
    But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
    It's cold out but hold out and do like I do

    Oh, I need you

    When I need love
    I hold out my hands and I touch love
    I never knew there was so much love
    Keeping me warm night and day

    When I need you
    Just close my eyes
    And you're right here by my side
    Keeping me warm night and day

    I just hold out my hands
    I just hold out my hand
    And I'm with you darlin'
    Yes, I'm with you darlin'
    All I wanna give you
    It's only a heartbeat away

    Oh I need you darling

    More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/l/leo+sayer/#share